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ladymirthI mean, what did I think was going to happen?
I blame it on the emotional see-saw I've been on for the past few weeks. Usually, I would have had a quiet rant about it on my own journal and left it at that, but I was too PISSED OFF to leave it at that.
So I beard the lions in their den and try and teach them the 'error of their ways'. You'd think I was a fandom rookie or something.
Plus, they are right. I do sound rather insufferable and condescending. Well, of course I do, I was pissed off. So was not making as much sense as I otherwise might've done. I should have just left the rebutteals to Dodger. She's better at it, and a good sport about it besides.
In retrospect, I can't quite remember WHY I got so steamed about it; it really doesn't rate more than a minor annoyance. Still, in my current apathetic state of mind, I can't even remember why I feel mad at George Bush.
Not my shining moment. I KNEW I was going to end up on some busybody's fandom_wank post, but I couldn't stop myself somehow. And the more defensive I get, the less rational I sound. Eugh. I'd delete the comments, but some idiot is sure to put up screen caps or have them saved in their email account. Better just suck it up. It's not like I don't totally deserve it for flaming somebody's personal journal, no matter how big of a wanker she is.
Here's something ironic. Saith I: I don't know, maybe there are some idiots out there who's using the icon to be snobby and push their own personal agenda. There's always a few people who you wish would get off your side because they make your side look bad. We can't help that.
I kind of feel like maybe I'M one of the people who should do my side a favour by defecting. Or maybe that's just the blues talking.
Still, if I was going to make myself look like a class nutcase, at least I might as well have done it over something that actually mattered, and not over a bunch of dumb icons that some idiot thought up after going, "RESPECT, geddit? Hur hur." Now that rankles.
Actually, some very good things have come from this wank. One is that it distracted me from all the bloody emo I was wallowing in. The other is that it made me realize that I am still able to laugh at myself. As long as I can do that, there is hope.
Of course, the real cheerer-upper came in the form of this: Cat! Dean and Cat! Sam.
Nobody could fail to crack a smile at that. They ought to distribute it as a form of therapy. 'Tis a pity, if I wasn't on my personal emo high, I would laugh for hours at that.
I even feel kind of fond of fandom_wank. Anything that snapped me out of The Bad Place deserves love. Not too much, of course.
PS: To those of my flist that I scared the bejesus out of by my last couple of posts - I am fine. Well, getting there, anyway. Not suicidal, never was. I feel better, and I'm seeing my counselor tomorrow. Sorry- really, really sorry - for the scare. I love you guys too much to do anything stupid. Who knows what havoc you might wreak on LJ if I left you alone?
*hugs flist* * is sheepish*
I blame it on the emotional see-saw I've been on for the past few weeks. Usually, I would have had a quiet rant about it on my own journal and left it at that, but I was too PISSED OFF to leave it at that.
So I beard the lions in their den and try and teach them the 'error of their ways'. You'd think I was a fandom rookie or something.
Plus, they are right. I do sound rather insufferable and condescending. Well, of course I do, I was pissed off. So was not making as much sense as I otherwise might've done. I should have just left the rebutteals to Dodger. She's better at it, and a good sport about it besides.
In retrospect, I can't quite remember WHY I got so steamed about it; it really doesn't rate more than a minor annoyance. Still, in my current apathetic state of mind, I can't even remember why I feel mad at George Bush.
Not my shining moment. I KNEW I was going to end up on some busybody's fandom_wank post, but I couldn't stop myself somehow. And the more defensive I get, the less rational I sound. Eugh. I'd delete the comments, but some idiot is sure to put up screen caps or have them saved in their email account. Better just suck it up. It's not like I don't totally deserve it for flaming somebody's personal journal, no matter how big of a wanker she is.
Here's something ironic. Saith I: I don't know, maybe there are some idiots out there who's using the icon to be snobby and push their own personal agenda. There's always a few people who you wish would get off your side because they make your side look bad. We can't help that.
I kind of feel like maybe I'M one of the people who should do my side a favour by defecting. Or maybe that's just the blues talking.
Still, if I was going to make myself look like a class nutcase, at least I might as well have done it over something that actually mattered, and not over a bunch of dumb icons that some idiot thought up after going, "RESPECT, geddit? Hur hur." Now that rankles.
Actually, some very good things have come from this wank. One is that it distracted me from all the bloody emo I was wallowing in. The other is that it made me realize that I am still able to laugh at myself. As long as I can do that, there is hope.
Of course, the real cheerer-upper came in the form of this: Cat! Dean and Cat! Sam.
Nobody could fail to crack a smile at that. They ought to distribute it as a form of therapy. 'Tis a pity, if I wasn't on my personal emo high, I would laugh for hours at that.
I even feel kind of fond of fandom_wank. Anything that snapped me out of The Bad Place deserves love. Not too much, of course.
PS: To those of my flist that I scared the bejesus out of by my last couple of posts - I am fine. Well, getting there, anyway. Not suicidal, never was. I feel better, and I'm seeing my counselor tomorrow. Sorry- really, really sorry - for the scare. I love you guys too much to do anything stupid. Who knows what havoc you might wreak on LJ if I left you alone?
*hugs flist* * is sheepish*
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Date: 2007-12-10 05:55 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2007-12-11 03:09 am (UTC)So do I, actually. I'm referring to the old joke - you know, as Evanescence is considered the flagship band for emo teens. You know, write bad poetry, listen to Evanescence? Well, I've got the bad poetry thing down so I'd better avoid Evanescence if I don't want to be turned into a pop-culture punchline.Only not really.=)(no subject)
Date: 2007-12-11 01:37 am (UTC)*sigh* Thursday cannot come quickly enough, IMO. *hugs to you* I'm sorry you got caught in the crossfire, but I admire the fact that you dove in and voiced your opinion. One of the many problems with this fandom is the fact that voicing an opinion not shared by most others is equal to a character attack. So not worth it, to me.
But don't mind me. I'm one of the "others". *snerk*
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Date: 2007-12-11 03:10 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2007-12-12 01:21 am (UTC)I'm a little late to it, but I'm glad you're going to get some help and see a counselor, and I'm glad so many folks popped out to talk to you on the previous posts. I know you're very anti-medication, but my advise, as it has been in the past, is to seek out proper care for your condition. If I remember correctly, you're a PCOS girl, too, and I speak from personal experience when I say that depression can be a nasty symptom that, however, can be dealt with on a physio-medical level, and there are alternatives to pills that some women respond positively to. As always, please use me as a resource! I'm not just here for the LnC love :)
I hope you're doing better today - as you haven't posted since this one.
(And those kitties are cute!)
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Date: 2007-12-12 10:40 pm (UTC)What's PCOS? Actually, I've been directed toward a homeopath. Am not entirely sure which is the lesser evil, since I don't know much about homeo. Mum is quite upset about the fact that I'd choose a homeopath over a psychiatrist, though. Psychiatrists are scary people, I say.
I thought depression was the cause rather than the symptom? Actually, I'm still questioning whether it really is depression. Do you have experience with it? I think it's still just stress.