I GOT IT! I GOT IT!

[ladymirth]

This is just to let 

laramoon and cyad know that I got their lovely card and the spirit beads a couple of days ago. And it's BEAUTIFUL! Thanks so much, guys! I collected my mail on my way out to meet Sajiv for our usual afternoon date and opened it with him and squealed so loud I nearly startled the entire coffeehouse! It took me a few minutes to figure out that it wasn't a necklace, but when I read the label I felt even more squeeful! Have I told you how much I love you guys yet?

***loooong hugs to both Lara and Carole****

I wanted to make a long, squeeful post complete with pictures soon after, but then I got sick and then all hell broke loose at home and then I had to go on a family trip to the South for some R&R. So I just decided to shove my planned celebratory back-to-LJ post with the pics and all (mostly because both the cameras are bloody AWOL. Don't ask.) and just let you know. But you know, I now possess your mailing addresses too, so you never know when you might find a surprise in your own mailbox! ;-D

I'm not doing well. Things are crazy at home. I know I'm withdrawing (it's a bad habit of mine) but I can't help it. I don't want to write or post about much of anything. Maybe it's because Sajiv is usually there, faithfully every night, for me to unload all my troubles and ranting and generally provide the small island of sanity that I so desperately crave. So at the end of the day, I just feel calm and excorcised and rather too drained to write anything. 

I know you've noticed I haven't been around much, and I feel really bad for being so out of touch with my flist whom I love so much. But I really can't handle living two lives at the moment, even when my LJ life has given me so much. I need to take a break from my on-line activites and focus on RL for a while. Maybe I'll be back within a week or two, maybe it'll take more than that. I hope you guys understand. I have no intention of leaving LJ for months, but I do need some time to sort out my own head. No, I'm not depressed. I don't think I'm in any danger of it either. The boyfriend, he is my bubble of sanity. I'm just really stressed out.

Once again, thank you so much for everything you guys have done for me. Even when I don't log in for a long time, I think about every one of you every day. I promise I'll be back soon. I know I'll miss you guys too much if I don't. 

This is not to say that I may not post random, unrelated links and anecdotes if the mood hits me. It's just that I'm not really going to be there for a while, you understand. I really, really hope you do. 

I love you guys.

 

 

Comments

[pgwfolc.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I have been thinking and wondering about you. Good to know you're still around and doing reasonably well. Glad you've got someone there to help you through it all. And of course it's understandable that you need some time away. It happens. Sad (miss you!), but understandable. Sort things through, feel better, and come back when you're ready. :)