Weird.

[ladymirth]

Okay, I have to say this…have you ever checked out your Friends page to find the exact same meme plastered all over it from top to bottom? Seriously it’s weird! All my friends have posted the same meme on the same day!

 

Whoa! I guess venting is pretty popular this season!

 

The meme in question, of course, is the one where you say something you want to tell someone but never will, and you have to post them without revealing who they’re meant for. I’m not gonna do it, because I honestly don’t think I have not said anything I really wanted to tell somebody.

 

Hang on, I tell a lie. I’ve always wanted to tell our Deputy Principal that she is a penultimate bitch and that the school has been going downhill ever since she took over. But maybe I’ll get a chance to say it to her yet, once I’ve passed out and she can’t expel me.

 

The upside to having a tendency to shoot my mouth off is the fact that I never feel repressed. Well, not for long. The downside to it, which significantly outweighs the upside, is that everyone thinks I have a borderline personality disorder and my parents think I’m a juvenile delinquent.

 

Well screw that. At least I got to chuck my pencil case at that insufferable Yathindra’s head in grade 9. Granted, it merely flew past her ear and bounced off the door instead of inflicting the desired cranial damage, but I’d say I made a definite statement.  That alone is worth a stint in a correction facility.

 

Ha! Repressed individual I am not! Mainly because, I suspect, I am a psycho who thinks actively endeavoring to crack open a poor girl’s skull, with a flimsy piece of stationery no less, is the epitomized example of a self-actualized personality.

 

Well, not really. I just find attempting to inflict bodily harm extremely therapeutic.

 

Yep, definitely psycho.

 

Ah, well, here’s to twenty years in a straight jacket!

Comments

[ilk-girl.livejournal.com]

I admire you. I totally do. I admire that you tell people things that. Most likely, if I tell people my opinion, they'll get obnoxiously defensive and it bugs. The. CRAP out of me when people get all defensive! So, I just keep my mouth shut. Like Harry Potter. You know, in book 6?

[ladymirth.livejournal.com]

Hahaha! I remember, that was classic. Seriously though, you shouldn't admire me. I've been trying my whole life not to shoot my mouth off. Civilization depends on people's ability to prevaricate, fib and repress. Otherwise, the diplomatic corps wouldn't exist and the law courts would be working overtime.
Hmm, well I'd say if you have a right to give an opinion, the other person also has a right to defend their position. You would too, wouldn't you? But I can understand how that can be infuriating. Sometimes you'll give anyting to knock some sense into people.
But you know, I think it's dangerous to air your opinion oftener than you air your laundry. Since I don't necessarily live by that, however, I suspect the only reason I'm not dead yet is because I give off a "I'm-a-harmless-idiot" vibe.

[missile-envy.livejournal.com]

Well, I think the main proof that you're not psychotic is that you think you are. In my experience, the main deal with psychos is that they don't realize that they are, in fact, psychotic. Which makes them all that more entertaining to hang out with. Just don't let them find out where you live.

As for speaking your mind...there's a time and a place. And more often than not, you're much better off just not saying anything and then biding your time until you can get some well-thought-out anonymous revenge. Sure, it's passive-aggressive, but at least you won't get in trouble for it.

[ladymirth.livejournal.com]

Hung out with a lot of pschos, have you? No wonder you write about them so well! =D.
Oh, I know I'm not pschotic, I was just kidding. At best, I'd say I need a refresher course in anger management but hey, having a blog works just as well.
Yeah, I know what you mean. The trouble with having a big mouth is that every thing that comes out of it seems like a good idea at the time. Must keep working on that.
People put up with this habit of mine because I'm as lavish in my praise as well as my criticism, and I'm a pretty non-judgemental, naive person wo really doesn't have many bad things to say. That definitely helps.
Okay, this is off topic but I'm really really curious. I read in one of your earlier posts that you turned down the ivy league universities when you were applying for college. Speaking as a person who is currently swamped in the bewildering world of college applications myself, I'm trying to decide whether you're merely insane or downright brilliant. I mean, WHY?!

[missile-envy.livejournal.com]

Don't worry. I didn't think you were a psycho. I was just kidding back. It was, after all, a pencil case and not a hatchet :).

You seem like a terribly nice person to me, and I'd hardly say you're naive. Believe me, you're a hell of a lot more mature than the average eighteen-year-old.

And I'm just going to e-mail you the rest of this, because it's really long and boring. Merry Christmas!

[ladymirth.livejournal.com]

Sorry it took me forever to reply to this. Gee whiz, Dasha, thanks for the advice! Especially th part about not worrying about not having my whole life figured out at this point. I'm applying for UK Universities and they all want a definitive career plan and stuff and everybody and their uncle's cousin's cat thinks it's a crime that I don't have the foggiest notion about it.
You in the US are so lucky. You can just go in as "undecided" but the UK wants to know which courses i want to apply for a year before you get there. And the tuition fees for foreign students are criminal! I don't know how my parents are gonna afford this. They might have to sell one of my siblings - not that I'd mind. *rolls eyes*
So that's my sob story in a nutshell. Thanks loads for the ear!
Um, actually one of my American friends are going through a round of University rejection blues. She seems to think that none of the Ivy leagues want her and it's the end of the world. Would you mind if I forwarded your e-mail to her? I think she might be able to pick up few pointers too, and she was very intrigued when i mentioned that I knew somebody who'd actually turned down an ivy league acceptance.

[missile-envy.livejournal.com]

You're very welcome for the advice, and I hope it's helpful. Having never dealt with UK universities, I can't give you much help there, but if it makes you feel any better, the high end American universities aren't any more understanding. If you're going to a state university or a small liberal arts school, you can apply as undecided. But otherwise it's the same trap. My cushy full ride was largely through the business school, so when I decided to change my major, all the nice administrators who had previously worked out my schedule for me and talked football with me and invited me in to visit them in their offices whenever I needed help suddenly turned into strangers.

I'll certainly agree that the tuition for foreign students in the UK and the US is utterly fucking ridiculous, especially since you can't qualify for the kind of grants and financial aid that residents and citizens can, though I know that certain countries have programs to help out students who go abroad for higher education. Which is to say that I know for a fact that none of the Chinese kids I went to college with paid a dime for their educations. Again, I don't know how things work in the UK, but if you're applying as a foreign student in the US, how much you pay for your tuition depends on your major. If you're coming to the US from Pluto and want to major in engineering, you WILL get a full ride.

But full ride or not, the least of your worries is how your parents are going to pay for it all. Really, it's not selfish. They saved up for this and planned for this, and they're your parents. They're sending you to college with an acute awareness of how well your career will allow you to take care of them later on in life. A nice retirement home without any pending civil action suits against it, for instance. Preferably with weekly Bingo.

Feel free to forward my e-mail to your friend. I don't know if I said it in there, but things have changed a LOT since I applied to colleges. The number of college applications have risen dramatically, and all of the American universities have been upping their requirements like mad and turning people away they'd have accepted without a second glance a few years ago. So she shouldn't feel bad. Just like those of us who graduated from college into one of the worst job markets in several decades, she's kinda screwed by circumstance. That's why we apply to backup schools. And please assure her that everybody I know who had to settle for one of their backup schools ended up just fine, I promise. Frankly, at a big state school, you have a lot more options if you're not sure what you want to do yet (the course listings used to make me drool), and it's a lot easier to make your whole college experience into what you want, instead of spending four years taking exactly what your advisor tells you to take. My best friend had his heart broken by Stanford and had to settle, then ended up being able to double major in Anthropology and Neurobiology with a minor in Chinese -- something he admits he never would have been able to pull off at Stanford. He would've had the connections and the nice impressive name on his resume, but he never would've had the freedom to study what he really wanted to study. Which is, in theory, what college is all about. So anyway. Hope that helps.