I GOT IT! I GOT IT!
Apr. 8th, 2008 10:05 pmThis is just to let
***loooong hugs to both Lara and Carole****
I wanted to make a long, squeeful post complete with pictures soon after, but then I got sick and then all hell broke loose at home and then I had to go on a family trip to the South for some R&R. So I just decided to shove my planned celebratory back-to-LJ post with the pics and all (mostly because both the cameras are bloody AWOL. Don't ask.) and just let you know. But you know, I now possess your mailing addresses too, so you never know when you might find a surprise in your own mailbox! ;-D
I'm not doing well. Things are crazy at home. I know I'm withdrawing (it's a bad habit of mine) but I can't help it. I don't want to write or post about much of anything. Maybe it's because Sajiv is usually there, faithfully every night, for me to unload all my troubles and ranting and generally provide the small island of sanity that I so desperately crave. So at the end of the day, I just feel calm and excorcised and rather too drained to write anything.
I know you've noticed I haven't been around much, and I feel really bad for being so out of touch with my flist whom I love so much. But I really can't handle living two lives at the moment, even when my LJ life has given me so much. I need to take a break from my on-line activites and focus on RL for a while. Maybe I'll be back within a week or two, maybe it'll take more than that. I hope you guys understand. I have no intention of leaving LJ for months, but I do need some time to sort out my own head. No, I'm not depressed. I don't think I'm in any danger of it either. The boyfriend, he is my bubble of sanity. I'm just really stressed out.
Once again, thank you so much for everything you guys have done for me. Even when I don't log in for a long time, I think about every one of you every day. I promise I'll be back soon. I know I'll miss you guys too much if I don't.
This is not to say that I may not post random, unrelated links and anecdotes if the mood hits me. It's just that I'm not really going to be there for a while, you understand. I really, really hope you do.
I love you guys.
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Date: 2008-04-08 07:46 pm (UTC)The beads are all Carole, though. I'm not to blame.. er.. thanked. ;)
I'm sorry things aren't going exactly the way you'd want them to, but I really hope they'll sort themselves out. *big hugs*!
We miss you... LJ is a little bit sad when you're not around - your humor is contagious. But there are times when it's good to take a step back and get well, or make sure things are going better and... you know, live in that thing out there that's supposedly called Real-Life(tm) -- this way you can be your happy, cheery self that we love so much again. (and then you can come back and entertain us *lol*)
Be well and know that you're in our thoughts, one way or another. :)
*HUGS*
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Date: 2008-04-09 08:18 am (UTC)You can call her Clarkette *smirks*